During my visit with Carson tonight a number of emotions went through my mind. The more time I spend with Carson the more I begin to understand, in a small way, the emotional and physical struggle that he is going through. Carson's positive attitude and love toward people is always the same. He smiles and laughs with everyone who visits him. He always has a story to share that leaves everyone in the room laughing louder than they probably have in a long time. I've never seen anyone who can lift a room while lying in a bed like him. Whenever I leave the hospital, I am always more inspired than before I came.
I know I'm saying things that everyone already knows. Those who have known Carson for a long time know that even through a life of arduous trials, Carson, even on his toughest days, leaves you wanting to be a better person. He makes you wish you were a little bit closer to the Savior, as he is. You repeat and ponder his profound words for days and weeks following your conversation. You ponder the immense depth of his soul. You wonder why you are so blessed to associate with someone so sincere and influential. You thank God just for the opportunity to interact with someone who seems so close to heaven. I know that if I were to say these things in his presence, he would simply shrug them off and compliment me even more.
Those who have known Carson, whether for years or even a couple of minutes, I'm sure you've experienced that same feeling of gratitude. I only give that introduction to this video to give a brief glimpse of the difficulty that Carson is going through but also those giving him care. It would be so easy to step in and help, but Carson, has determined to feed himself. This just gives a small idea of the constant struggle Carson goes through all day, every day. While there are moments of distress and despair, it is a miracle to me to see someone affront such an intense emotional battle with such optimism and faith.
This video was difficult for me to watch, but it gives a realistic look at the struggle that Carson is going through every day. It is awesome to see his determination to do it on his own from start to finish. There were a number of videos from physical therapy that are even more frustrating to watch. We probably won't post those videos. Please keep him in your prayers.
Carson's Meal Eating
